Release Date: May 14, 2013
Pages: 320 pages
Source & Format: Publisher | Paperback
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One innocent mistake . . . a lifetime of consequences.
After growing up an only child, Amanda Lisandra wants a big family. But since she and her soldier husband can’t afford to have more children right away, Mandy decides to earn money as a gestational carrier for a childless couple. She loves being pregnant, and while carrying the child, she dreams of having her own son and maybe another daughter. . . .
Just when the nearly perfect pregnancy is about to conclude, unexpected tragedy enters Mandy’s world and leaves her reeling. Devastated by grief, she surrenders the child she was carrying and struggles to regain her emotional equilibrium.
Two years later she studies a photograph of the baby she bore and wonders if the unthinkable has happened—could she have inadvertently given away her own biological child? Over the next few months Mandy struggles to decide between the desires of her grief-stricken heart and what’s best for the little boy she has never known.
It's a little frustrating when the book synopsis gives away almost the entirety of the story. However, that synopsis really sparked my interest in this novel and it kept me reading because the story goes beyond the synopsis to really explore this situation and what a situation it is! How many women can say they have been a surrogate? Furthermore, how many can say they may have accidentally given away their own child? I imagine that this book would be perfect for book clubs especially those that contain mothers. Not everyone may agree with what the main character does or says, but the conversations this book could start would be complex and so incredibly interesting!
It's by no means my favorite book. I didn't quite understand the main character and some of the dialogue felt a tad unrealistic. However, I love that it made me think about a topic that I haven't ever spent a lot of time thinking about.